Becoming the Woman I Need.

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When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things.

1 Corinthians 13:11

Last night I found myself deep in my thoughts. I asked myself, “Am I truly operating in the spirit of who I want to become?”. I began to examine my mind, my actions, my goals, my mentality, and my circumstances. In all honesty, I felt that I could be a whole lot more. I felt that I was only operating in part of my purpose, but I haven’t been the woman I’m destined to be.

I often would come with excuses due to my circumstances. Whether that be lack of time, money, support, or physical resources. Then I had the thought that it’s really all up to me. I have to step into being this woman NOW. I could no longer allow my circumstances to define or confine me; I have to be refined.

I had it bad about being influenced by what I felt others thought of me. I would allow those thoughts to consume my mind and make me feel less confident in my passions and in my day-to-day life. I had this belief that for some reason I was inferior to other people and that I was not capable of accomplishing my goals because I wasn’t intelligent enough, beautiful enough, or had enough personality. In reality, I’ve been lacking confidence.

Life moves forward so quickly. I am no longer interested in allowing my life to pass me by. Sitting on the fence, waiting to be liked, respected, and supported. I realized that I don’t have the time to wait for the approval of others because I’d be waiting my entire life. It’s me, this life is about me and what brings me joy and fulfillment. No one is going to satisfy that hunger but me.

The only choice I have at this point is to become her. The woman I see myself as full of wisdom, courage, confidence, and purpose. It’s about time I develop the hope I put into the world into myself. I am destined to be great and it is not a necessity to be seen by anyone else. I have to see the greatness within me.

From this point forward, I promise myself that the only approval I seek will come from within. That will be my first step to becoming the woman I need.

Writer’s Block.

The noise in our heads can sometimes be louder than the sounds surrounding us…

It’s the chaotic feels we often try to find an escape from; never realizing the beauty in embracing the strain. The process of change stretches us and allows us to find new heights and depths of our realities; to help us express ourselves in new ways: more creative and seasoned with experiences that make us think differently than we were originally programmed.

The art of life is the challenges that push out purpose. Nothing is meant to remain stagnant. I believe stagnancy is the death of creativity. When we become stuck on how we feel life is “supposed to be”.

The course of life itself is infinite and unpredictable. There’s so many ways we can divert from “the plan”. Moving away from the fear of diversion only leads us to greater being. What we plan for ourselves will always be from a biased point of view. We can’t truly confirm who we will be or where we’ll end up because those parts of us are constantly changing and evolving based on the simple things: where we live, where we consider work, the people we meet, the knowledge we gain. There’s no possible way to stick to the script unless we fight change, robbing ourselves of the opportunities to truly develop.

The challenge is to fall into the moments of fear and discontentment and truly embrace them. We have to experience the feeling of the unknown in order to learn how to move forward. Experience is the only true teacher of life. We can watch motivational videos, read every self help book or blog, or listen to advice from loved ones as much as we want. The answers we seek all comes from within and there’s no way to avoid the journey. All we can do is trust God and believe in ourselves enough to know that no matter where life leads us everything will work out; even when facing the experiences we can’t control.

There’s always wisdom to be gained. The ability to learn is truly a gift that reminds us to remain in humility. It’s a beautiful life to have those constant reminders because it also teaches us to appreciate where we are and to have faith in where we’re going.

There’s not a single occasion in life that’s not attached to another. Everything we experience is present or existed for a reason. That fact alone defines living a life full of purpose. There’s purpose in every moment: both the successes and the losses. The quality of our lives aren’t solely based on how we feel; emotions are temporary. In the same moment we express disappointment there’s still something else in our lives that can bring us joy. It’s all based on where we decide to put our focus.

Where we’ll end up is truly unpredictable, but appreciation of life itself will help us see the beauty of what’s to be gained. It’s time to unhinge from fear and connect with faith in new possibilities. The potential YOU have is endless.

Write on…

Music is truly healing. Enjoy my favorite “pick me up” song. I hope the lyrics inspire you as they have for me.

Spiritually Healing your Broken-Heart

mending a broken heart


Biblical Reference:

“We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies.” – 2 Corinthians 4:8-10

“I consider that what we suffer at this present time cannot be compared at all with the glory that is going to be revealed to us.” – Romans 8:18

“The Lord is near to those who are discouraged; he saves those who have lost all hope.” – Psalm 34:18

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